Relax - be constant and don't overdo

Bukhari Volume 8, Book 76, Number 472:
Narrated 'Aisha:
The Prophet was asked, "What deeds are loved most by Allah?" He said, "The most regular constant deeds even though they may be few." He added, 'Don't take upon yourselves, except the deeds which are within your ability."

This Hadith is such a mercy from Allah the most kind. If we reflect on this hadith, the divine wisdom just feels right in every way possible.  You have reached your standing point, you have turned over a new leaf you approach all acts on worship at the same time with enthusiasm and vigor. You fast, you pray the voluntary prayers you give abundant charity and increase in helping others..... but then after like the third day running on 3 hours sleep you start to falter and cut back on your deeds to the point you are actually doing less than when you started!!!
This situation is like one who spends all his monthly pay cheque in the first week and lives on loans and hand outs for the rest of the month. 

And it is a situation many of us new to the deen or coming back to Allah the exalted go through.  

BUILD UP GRADUALLY
Do deeds, but do them perfectly following the sunnah and remain constant and patient. Do what is within your capability like the hadith says

'Don't take upon yourselves, except the deeds which are within your ability."

Don't enroll onto every class at the madrassa choose one at a time and stick to it. Dont fast continuously to the point you make yourself sick. Don't pray continuously neglecting your parents, family and wider obligations. DO pray for part of the night and ask the most high to help you and re establish your relationship with your creator.  Take the middle road, take time and be constant.

BE REGULAR

The Prophet was asked, "What deeds are loved most by Allah?" He said, "The most regular constant deeds even though they may be few."

If you start to make a habit of fasting on the sunnah days be regular and try and stick to it building up gradually untill you achieve your goal of being constant. If you are not praying the witr prayers make a concerted effort with yourself to pray them every night. If you are not praying all your prayers on time mould yourself into praying them everyday on time. If you are not praying try hard to start praying.

NEVER LOSE HOPE IN ALLAH

We are all made differently from different soil.  And people are at different levels, the wisdom, which I can understand now I couldn't 5 years ago.  Make your intention and put your hand to the task and ask Allah to help you no matter where you are in your deen.  remember Allah says he is with the patient

2:153 O ye who believe! seek help with patient perseverance and prayer; for Allah is with those who patiently persevere.

May ALLAH GIVE US ALL THE TAWFEEQ AMEEN YA RABIL ALAMEEN!

My Dear Brother.....

Listen,

What ever you have done, however bad you may think you are,  however much you think you have no chance to change.  If you turn to Allah with sincere repentance 

Allah will turn your bad deeds into good ones. [Surah Al-Furqan 25:70] 

I know it seems you have done the most horrible unforgivable thing.  But the fact you feel like this means your heart is still alive.  So don't give up hope.  Dont let the shaytaan trick you into thinking there is no way back.  As long as the shaytaan doesn't give up trying to mislead you don't give up on making tawbah to the most merciful and trying to change.  It is so hard, you feel like the your world is squeezing you and your nafs is inclined to give in to your desires,  I know Akhi.  I know.  Just hang in there. Remember the words of The most forgiving:

Say: O My servants who have transgressed against their own souls, despair not of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful. (Surah az-Zumar 39:53)

What a BEAUTIFUL AYAH!


Also Lets be merciful to one another, instead of scolding one another, bad mouthing and exposing each others sins.... Let us help and encourage one another and hide each other's sins.


Narrated Jarir bin 'Abdullah: Allah's Apostle said, "Allah will not be merciful to those who are not merciful to mankind."
[Bukhari]


MAY ALLAH GIVE US THE TAWFEEQ




All praise and glory be to Allah the creator, the sustainer, the enricher, the afflictor, the most merciful, the most forgiving, the All seeing the All knowing.


And abundant peace and blessings be on his slave and messenger Sayeedna, Habinah, Mustafa Muhammed Sallalhu Alayhi wa salam.